Lilac Crazy

I’ve got just a little bit of eye candy for you to start the week. It’s lilac season and you will have to indulge me as I show a photograph in every possible pose of this beauty.  Sometimes I think I am the only one totally crazy for lilacs, but as I drive around town I find them everywhere; some people even have entire hedges of them!  Some are light purple, some are the darker, and I’ve even seen a few of the white ones. That leads me to believe I am not the only one totally lilac crazy out there.

This picture I took last year and use for my computer screen saver. All year long I open my computer and these purple blossoms greet me. You know, I never get tired of them. Sometimes I will switch poses of them because I want to look at something a little bit different.

This is another favorite of mine.  I use this for my facebook homepage, my pinterest profile photo, and for some of my blog comments.  I figure these flowers are much more beautiful than I am.  Anyway, if my spirit was a flower, it would be a lilac.

Have you ever seen one of those crazy purple ladies who have everything purple? I’m truly not like that at all. It is just that this time of year I go a little purple flower crazy. Well…  maybe it just isn’t this time of year.  I adore the lavender in the summer, and I just planted two flats of petunias. I bet you can guess what color they were.  Come to think of it, my bedroom is purple. I have several purple dressy work outfits, and oh my…I have a purple purse. You don’t think I am one of those crazy purple ladies do you?

Now tell me, if your spirit was a flower, what would it be?

Linking with Mosaic Monday over at Little Red House

 

Your Mother

Then he said to his disciple, “Behold your Mother!”

After that the disciple took her into his own home. -John 19:27

My mother loves the color blue, as a child our house was always decorated in shades of blues. The furniture was blue, her bedroom was blue, her dishes were blue, and even her hazel eyes reflected blue when she wore that color. As a young woman I was not fond of the blues. I rarely wore it or used it in my home.  But lately I am starting to appreciate the beauty and happiness of blues. And I must say, blue flowers are one of my favorites. As I write this post, I smiled when I realized  the color I picked to re-do the blog for summer is blue.

Blue is the color of the sky, of forget-me-not flowers, and of course my mother.

What color is your mother?  

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Mothering Love

“Many of us have the blessed privilege of being at the same time mother and child, able to let the one interpret the other to us until our understanding of both is full and rich.”-Laura Ingalls WIilder

On the first day of May, our family welcomed a new little one into the circle of family.   I watched my first grandson emerge into this world through the tears and pain of his mama.  The epidural that was suppose to help with the pain didn’t kick in until he was ready to come into this world.  This daughter of mine, who as a child cried for hours over a bee sting, showed amazing strength and endurance in labor. The struggle was hard, the pain was intense…and then there he was, a baby boy!  A big baby boy, 9 lbs 11 oz and 22 inches long.  He emerged from the womb blue and not quite able to get his breath. The birth into this world had been a quick one, but not an easy one for mother and baby.

 

All pain was forgotten as my daughter held her newborn son. And even yesterday when I spoke of the pain, she brushed it off as if it was nothing.  She was abundantly blessed with a child and the pain of bringing him into this world was forgotten.

The extended family had driven many miles to be there to welcome him. Uncle, Aunt, and grandparents were there. Family and friends scattered all over the country anxiously awaited the phone call announcing his arrival. We were welcoming  a new little soul into the circle of family.

 

 

Our family is a circle of strength and love, with every birth and every union, the circle will grow, every joy shared adds more love, every crisis faced together, makes the circle stronger.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We faced our first crisis with him a few days later when he was diagnosed with severe jaundice and dehydration. He was so weak when he was re-admitted to the hospital that he was barely able to suckle and was difficult to rouse. Every one had gone home at this point, but the mothers came. My daughter stayed at the hospital sleeping on a small bed close to the baby, I slept at her house to watch the other two little ones.  My own 85 year old mother whose brain has been ravished with Alzheimer’s disease, begged and pleaded with me to let her come and help in some way.

My daughter and I flew into the passion of sacrificial mothering. The men in our family have learned to either help or get out of our way when we get like this. We are focused, we are driven, and we are not always reasonable.

Mother love is the fuel that enables the normal human being to do the impossible – Marion Garretty

And with a mother’s love and presence constantly there, the help of lights and IV’S, baby Jaxon surprised the doctors by having a quicker than expected recovery.  Two nights later he came home to two adoring sisters who will try their best as long as they live, to mother him. He will pull against it often, but in the his heart he will always know his sisters love is a rare and sweet thing.

This mother’s day finds me both a mother and a grandmother. Strangely, I have also found myself mothering my own mother now. But mothering is like that I am learning.  It begins early with our siblings sometimes, and doesn’t end when the last child leaves home. The strength, the fuel, that propels us to take care of those we love is one of the most powerful forces on the earth.  And I’m not sure it ends at death, I think it goes on.  That we, as selfish human women, can dig so deep, and sacrifice so much for those we love is nothing short of amazing. Mothering love is indeed a reflection of the heart of God.

Wishing all of you amazing women who mother in so many ways, a blessed mother’s day.

Linking this post with: The Charm of Home and Spiritual Sunday

 

Gifts

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the father of heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadow.  James 1:17

May we have eyes and hearts that are wide open to all the good and perfect gifts surrounding us.

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Where the poppies bloom

 

Why are you downcast, O my soul?

Why so disturbed with me?

This has been a strange week. We have had intense joy with a new grandson born, and difficult news coming in from all over the country from friends and family.  Life is sometimes like that – joy and sorrow mixed.  Job losses from friends, a phone call coming of two unexpected and tragic deaths from extended family, a husband filing for divorce. Some were hurts that were not even spoken, but  I am close enough to them that I can feel the ache of their soul.  Joy and sorrow mixing together in one week.  One friend wrote to me in an email, “I just feel like someone has kicked me in the stomach with all of this and I just can’t stand up and go on.” In looking back, even the joy of the birth of our grandson came after great pain and feelings of this is too hard to endure.

 

 

 

 

I don’t have the answers to all of this and I wouldn’t even try to find the right words. But I have carried in prayer many who could not walk to the throne of grace this week.  I think sometimes it is almost as hard to watch those you love suffer as it is to suffer yourself.   As I’ve laid each person down, I’ve realized I must leave them there with trust.

I read somewhere about a battle field that was filled with bodies killed in war.  With deep sadness the town  cleaned the field and then tilled the ground without planting anything there. The next spring  poppies bloomed in the fields. Bright, beautiful flowers reaching long stems up in hope, swaying in the wind.  It was like a beautiful message to the town that those killed did live on, that beauty can come from tragedy. 

Put your hope in God,

for I will yet praise him,

my savior and my God. – Psalms 43:5

 

See, I will do a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?

I am making a way in the desert,

and streams in the wasteland. – Isaiah 43:19

May you find hope in your desert places, and I pray that poppies will bloom in the freshly tilled fields of your disappointments.

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